BAD! Kitty Art Studio ~ New ART ~ #2 in the ZaadZ series

BAD! Kitty New ART!

this is #2 in the NEW Zaadz series

9x12 mixed media on canvas board

It says on it:

"Always remember that the future comes one day at a time"

Hope you like it...More to come #3 and #4 are almost done too! Can't wait to share them with you.

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Quote for the day

***

For many of us we are always wanting more -

we would be happier if we had such and such.

Maybe we should pause for a moment and hear what

some people in the third world countries

would like to make them happier.

1. Having enough to eat so when you go to sleep at night your stomach doesn't ache.

2. Having shoes on your feet and any kind of clothing to keep the cold out.

3. Having a roof over your head.

4. Having the hope that you'll be lucky enough to get some kind of an education.

5. Believing that the dream of freedom, brotherhood, and peace for all mankind will someday come true.
Abigail Van Buren

***

I woke up this morning, and I was thinking about

my own blessings/burdens.

When I read the above quote this morning I was struck by how these simple truths are not just

applicable to third world countries today.

We have Americans that would like to have these same things, enough to live a life

that isn't a burden.

That's why I choose to operate my business the way that I do.

My blessings, being clairvoyant, an artist and fully engaged

in my life and in those of which I touch.

I count my blessings today.

I have a roof,

I have a family that all have shoes,

I have a family that loves me,

I have true friends, like I have never had before in my life,

I have the belief in myself that I will succeed,

I have faith,

I have trust,

I have food (well some anyway)

I have so many blessings that I feel

lucky today,

maybe today will be

the day that changes are made that

will improve the reality

that I live in.

Maybe today I will sell some art, maybe today I will find a new client to work with, maybe today my children will have a

peaceful productive day at school and home, maybe today my day won't feel like I am just getting through another one.

I am a wealthy soul, and I open my arms to you, and offer my love and blessings to all who wish to share in them.

***

I was asked yesterday by someone who was interested in buying art, "why would you sell these so cheaply? They should be selling for much more." BTW she didn't buy anything.

I told her that I have sold my work for thousands of dollars, I am listed as one of the top 500 artists in America...But my

inner truth is I don't want to work that way.

I want my work to move (move on) to people who need/want it...I don't use my talents for the purpose of GREED.

I give readings for $1.00 a minute and I give away readings all the time for free...Why?

Because I can, and I am driven to be the change

that I want to see in this world.

I trust that someday people will look at this

experiment in business not as a joke, or a scam of some sort, or

that I am not "good" enough to ask for more money.

They will understand that I ask for only that which I need, not what the world says I should be doing, and how everyone else does it...

authentic people rarely feel the need to bend to the will of the

social norms. And Besides...screw Normal Business as usual...it dosen't work for me, never has.

I am doing what I want to do, because it make me happy, makes me powerful, makes me feel

FREE.

So judge me, laugh, poke fun, shake your head in wonder...

think I'm full of it. I don't care anymore...

It won't matter to me, because I believe in me...

I don't need you to believe in me too.

I will survive, and I will prosper, and I will

be proud of the way that I created my material wealth...

by never taking more than I needed ....

and always giving more than what I was asked for.

Today I will be gathering up warm clothes, old good shoes and boots, a few fancy ball gowns I have saved *for younger/high school grrrls that need them for dances and such* (from back when I was a dancer) and be donating them to people who need them...Because I am so very rich even in my own state of poverty.

***

Have a wonderful day everyone, think not outside the box today, this FAT Tuesday...But just for today...think from inside the Human...What can you do today for someone that you love, or a stranger? What can you do for yourself to prove to you, you really do love yourself?

Think about it....Then take action.

Much love to all,

Heather/Sybil Ann

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Quote of The Day

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The superstition that all our hours of work are a minus quantity in the happiness of life, and all the hours of idleness are plus ones, is a most ludicrous and pernicious doctrine, and its greatest support comes from our not taking sufficient trouble, not making a real effort, to make work as near pleasure as it can be.
Arthur James Balfour

***

Today I work again with pure love and intention at my day job

http://www.astrocenter.com

and I look forward to the end of my shift, even before I have started. Not because of my clients, I love helping them find their inner best selves, it's the fact that I have new art that I have started and am excited about, and I want to work on those projects instead.

I guess this is one of those days where I have to be a "grown-up" and do what needs to be done, first...Then I play!

I also am going to go to the range today, if I have time...All alone.

I loved shooting this weekend, and everytime I felt the rightness leave my string and hit the mark...I felt my warrior rise.

I felt the light fill me.

I felt the pain fall away a little more.

So I may go shoot the shit out of some paper targets...And my new arrows are sooooo cool, and fast....And did I say cool?

I am still the only woman shooting at the line....It's 2006! Where are my Archer Grrrls out there?

No problems...I'll just shoot anyway...And kick some

serious ass.

I have been trying to sell art, gain customers for my life coaching/psychic work site....And I am tired, because I have not seen results yet from all the effort put out.

Working for yourself, especially the way I want...No MUST make my living....Business with a conscience...It's not working as well as I had hoped, people are confused by my approach to only asking for what I need...They are confused by my lack of greed.

So they don't trust me.

Isn't that funny?

I trust me though, and I know that change takes time, so today

I continue

to be

me.

Understand it or not, I'll still be here when you get back.

Much love to all,

Heather/Sybil Ann

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You Deserve the originals in this life,

BUY SOME ART!

Book a reading...I'll even give you the first five minutes free...Just to get to know me better, and prove I'm the real thing...

What's stopping you from being the you

you really want to be?

Nothing, that's what.

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Quote for the Day

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As long as I can remember I feel I have had this great creative and spiritual force within me that is greater than faith, greater than ambition, greater than confidence, greater than determination, greater than vision. It is all these combined. My brain becomes magnetized with this dominating force which I hold in my hand.
Bruce Lee

***

When I was a little girl about 10 or so...The Salvador Dali museum opened in St. Petersburg, FL.

My father took me on the opening day, and while we waited in line, I could see through the glass windows into the gallery.

When we were able to get in, and walk around looking at the incredible art that I had only seen in the books I had, I was awe struck by the art, the mastery of course...But even more than that, I understood the message in his work, and I knew who I really was right then, at ten, in the middle of a crowded museum...I knew I was special, just like Dali....because I could "see" and Understand.

***

Memory is a slippery slope, it can take you to wonderful places and times. It can bring also bring pain and loss.

Persistence is different all together.

They sent Albert Einstein home from school at 6 or 7 with a note saying "this boy is too stupid to teach mathematics." Dali was shunned by his art community largely because he saw things so much differently than the social "artist" society, that he was living in. He was a trail blazer, a rule breaker.

I identified with his work because I knew I was meant for something great even then. I had faith in myself, even though I had never been given any reason to. I wanted more than anything to roll out a sleeping bag and live in the museum, and soak up the mastery of pure intellectual defiance.

It was the beginning of my love affair with art in every form and fashion...I see art in everything, everywhere...It's also why I can't be pegged as any "type" of artist the galleries hate that, so do the agents...I just am me...And I just do what I do...And I do it for me.

I call it Heatherism...You can call it whatever you like.

***

We took the boys to the Archery range yesterday, they had so much fun, and so did we...Teaching them the calmness, being quiet inside their heads, focus on the target and to become the arrow. Both of them were amazing with their ability to do those things, and hit the target everytime, from teh first shot...I live in a house full of eagle eyed, dead aim people.

I love it.

I was a little rusty at first....Thinking of all the things I know about the sport, and at my first three times on the line, my arrows went everywhere but the target.

I was embarrassed.

I didn't quit.

5th time to the line...I took my bow, loaded, took aim...And closed my eyes at full draw. I pictured myself as an empty vessel, and that the arrow was the portion of myself that was not empty, the portion I wanted to release with intention...

In the 3 seconds that took me to do...I opened my eye and I released.

Hit the target just like old times

(well almost it's been 10 years after all)

for the rest of the day, I was on.

I am the arrow,

I am the empty vessel,

I am full, I am empty

I am deadly,

I am true,

I am.

We are going back today, and will probably begin to really train the boys in form and faith. They have natural talent, we all love the sport, and mate man...He could really be a champion, amazing talent inside that Man.

We all had such a wonderful day, and are looking forward to another one.

The boys want to get good enough to be able to enter local competitions...I want to compete again too. Mate man thinks it's the coolest thing ever.

This is helping bring us together as a family after the loss of our oldest son.

It makes you feel powerful and in control with that string is pulled back, resting so softly and lightly against your face, and the Swish of the arrow released, with the satisfying thunk of hitting your mark.

I love that they were smiling, excited and full of confidence again.

I love that I felt that way too.

Archery is very Zen.

Clean, pure and simple...Primitive and primal.

Like my art, like my faith, like my spirit.

I feel restored.

I feel like me again....deadly and full of love.

***

I hope you all experience a time of joy and peace today,

yours in the moment,

Heather/Sybil Ann

PS Today is Sunday....yep it's that time of the week again...Buy art from Heather Day...So you better get on it!

on my blog (just scroll down, you'll see them) I have a large list of paintings that are on special deep discounted prices (read this artist needs to make some sales, I hate Peanut butter...and I am sick to death of beans)...You should take a look, but take out your wallet first please, I wouldn't want you to hurt yourself racing around the house to find it when the work that screams I AM YOURS...Hits you between the eyes. :)

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Quote of the day

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If you do not wish to be prone to anger, do not feed the habit; give it nothing which may tend to its increase. At first, keep quiet and count the days when you were not angry: "I used to be angry every day, then every other day: next, every two, then every three days!" and if you succeed in passing thirty days, sacrifice to the gods in thanksgiving.
Epictetus

***

Anger and focus.

My concentration today will be to control myself,

and turn focus back in on my own life.

I released a lot of the anger towards my son last night, while I talked with my guides...My blue angel (angels don't have gender to me) that has been with me since I was in the crib...He used to hold me and smooth my brow when things were going crazy in my little girl life.

( I call him he just to make it easier to tell the story)

When my little body was being abused/exploited he would come and take me from my body, so that I could survive the event, intact...Mentally.

He has not been around for years now...Except the last three nights, and his whispers of love and faith and pureness, have made me awaken today with new ideas, new vigor, new life...I'm feeling like me again...Maybe that's his job, to but the puzzle pieces back together when they start to come apart...When I fracture inside, he comes and heals. He also rest inside Mate Man...I just figured that out...He has always been around, my blue angel.

Believe it or not, doesn't matter to me, because it's my truth...Your opinion/belief in/of the facts of my life, doesn't effect my reality, or what I know to be true.

Focus...On what can be done to make life better, instead of wallowing in ineffective anger.

Stop thinking...Start doing.

The family will be going to the local Archery Range today. The boys don't know it yet and it's going to be so much fun to teach them to shoot. I am not a hunter (ICK) but I am a Champion Archer...So I can't wait to show them what their OLD MOM can really do.

My bow will be taken down and tuned and re-strung...And I will shoot until I feel better. And the Boys will have fun, and Mate Man can get his bow back up and running too...We will have to have a little healthy competing I am sure...We are both eagle eye shooters....Sniper types, both of us have incredible aim.

Focus.

I am not feeling like I have to keep going this way anymore.

I feel like I finally understand the difference between loving someone so much that it becomes unhealthy.

I release Jordan (the oldest) to his own life.

I love him enough to know that DID raise a GREAT Human being...

and when he figures out how special he is, by learning, failing, and growing...Hopefully he will understand that my hands and heart have always been open, in love, not control.

So fly my little Man, I wish you all the best this world can provide for you...But I pray for your own inner discovery of your own incredible light.

I stop today.

I stop thinking about how I can fix it.

I stop thinking about what I could have, should have, would have done or did in his young life.

I know within myself, I have done my best, always.

I forgive myself today for not being able to change other people...That doesn't mean I can't keep inspiring, helping, healing those who want the healing.

You have to want change...For you, before it can happen.
I choose change, I choose to LIVE, and continue to grow and learn and hurt when it's needed.

Because that is the sign of my inner spirit being truly Engaged.

Yours in the moment today,

I'm off to DO something about the way I have Been feeling...

I control me,

and I choose to be

happy today.

Damit!

Have a great super Saturday everyone!

Much Love,
Heather/SybilAnn

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Quote for the day

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There is an ancient tale about a king who wanted to pick the wisest man among his subjects to be his prime minister. When the search finally narrowed down to just three men, he decided to put them to the supreme test.

Accordingly, he placed them together in a room in his palace, and on the room door he had installed a lock which was the last word in mechanical ingenuity.

The candidates were informed that whoever was able to open the door first would be appointed to the post of honor. Setting themselves to the task, two of the men began to work out complicated mathematical formulas to discover the lock combination.

The third man, however, just sat down in his chair, lost in thought.

Finally, without bothering to put pen to paper, he got up, walked to the door, and turned the handle. The door opened.

It had been unlocked all the time!
James Keller

***

Sometimes the simplest answer to any situation is mystifing approach to most problems. I have been plagued by over-thinking...Over-thinking my role, my ability to control others and their actions, Over-thinking my own inner state of mind and not be sucked backwards into an older version of myself, one that has always survived, but was always a victim, and carring a huge cross on my back.

I am no victim, not to my present situatuation,

not to my ability to go back in time and change the past,

and not in my sleep/rest time...Which means with the nightmares I'm having, getting up early, and trying to find a place of peace in my own head.

I have had the worst month on record, I don't think that the depression could get much worse yesterday...I thought I might just be really diving off the deep end...Overwhelmed by simple facts of life.

I have never been able to just sit and think without action. It makes me feel crazy inside.

So, I took action, trying to make myself feel better, and show my true intentions and love for my oldest child.

I went last night to see my son, now that I have found out where he really is. I spoke openly and with sincerity to the kind people who have kept my son in off the street. It's cold and raining here all the time, so I was worried about his health.

He had led them to belief that he was "unsafe" at home, and so being a kind and loving woman...She took him in.

I thanked her and her family for that.

I also said it was NOT OK with me that he was staying with them, but that I appreciated their caring ways, and I apologized to the family for bringing negative energy into their home.

They were so kind, and understanding, and the Mom was so very sincere, it made me feel little better, and more sad too.

I did ask why they were letting him stay there.

Her answer "because we like him, he is vey good boy, and helps out around the house and is very helpful in general." Nice to know that I raised him well enough to know that if you are going to be a MooooCH then you should at least pitch in around the house, to keep your mooching in effect...and it's a great tool of manipulation..."see hoe good I really am? My parents are such Bitch's, they don't appreciate me, and they are "unsafe". See what a really great person I am, don't you want to take care of me?" Emotional Manipulation 101.

I would be too, if I was getting free room and food...I did ask from one Mother to another, would this be OK for your son to do, to leave home, come to my house and not let her know where he was or if he was Ok? How would you feel, if your son said he was going to be gone for a few hours, and never came back home? She didn't even think...She said she would call the police, she would worry herself sick, she would be scared, she would roam the streets, she would find him.

I explained that I was feeling all those things, right now.

I also apologised again for bringing turmoil into their home with my presence...That was not my intention, I had heard that he was looking sick from one of teachers at teh school, because I have to call and check if he is still alive by calling everyday to see if he is still alive, or in the area, so because I needed to lay eyes on him, as his Mom....I went to see him. He was fine...Not sick, just hungover from whatever partying that he had done before going to school. So... he is an ass, but fine.

I came home feeling better, like I had done something about the situatuation...It didn't last long. He still won't come home, he can smoke cigarettes there, he can smoke pot there, he can come and go as he pleases, because he is a guest, not their child.

So he would not come home.

I left without shedding a tear, all though that was really hard to do...The Mom said "it's ok to cry, you are upset, let it out." I looked at her, and then across the room at my son, and said "no, it's not ok for me to cry, I have shed my last tear for you, you get no more of my tears...Because it means nothing to you. I'll not waste my tears anymore on someone who can repeatedly hurt me and his family so much with no compassion or honor for your own Mother, or little brotjers, or your family that loves you in general."

From now on Jordan you get what you give.

If you give nothing, then you get nothing, if you cause pain and hurt to these people who love you, you will be treated as a threat, or an aggressor, I will protect my home, and children and self from you from now on.

If you keep asking me for things but offer nothing in return, then I give nothing as well.

I can't stop loving my child, not ever in a million years, but that does not mean I have to like him or his heartless actions.

I control only me, last night I controlled only me...

I went with intent, a little frustration, and a lot of humility.

That's the last I had to give. I am tapped for this Human, this baby I grew and spent 17 years lovong and protecting and wiping away every tear, going to doctors, you know good Mom stuff, we all do for our kids.

I control myself, my reactions to the situations in my life, I lost sight of that for a few days there.

So I STOP Giving, before I become so empty that I have nothing left, for the other people in my life or myself.

I'll Not give up...No never.

But trying so hard to save/rescue/love someone who resents me for those very actions, no longer has the same power it had over me as it had before. No more Guilt about waht I could have done better, what I could have done period.

I am a Mother, I am not perfect, I am also Human.

I love him, I wish him the best in his life path, and I release him from my expectations to correct his behavior, or my expectations for him as great of a Human Being, that I still trust he can become.

I release him.

I realease me.

I release....Over thinking...

I will just try the handle of this door and see if it opens...

if it does not, that does not mean I failed. Just means I need to try another key.

I ask my (inner) guide Sybil Ann to speak to the spirit realm, and ask for guidance...The report back was from a spirit I have become very close with over the last year or so...a young man name Mark, who died in the late 70's, because he refused to listen to or obey his parents about driving in an ice storm...he did it anyway and that caused his death.

He told me yet again..."Let the boy run his course."

So... let it run...And try not to think about it every second of everyday.

Because I have work to do.

I have a job, a home, a mate, two other small children and furry people that need/love/support me, and for the first time in my life, I think I might actually have a couple of REAl grown up female friends, that keep sending their love and support...I have never had that before, so it's hard to get used to.

I finished my patchwok Self yesterday, see teh the post below for pictures.

I felt better after it was done, and it was something that I have never really done before as far as materials used...but I like it, it feels right to me.

I am starting a new painting today, as Friday is my day off from the day job at

http://www.astrocenter.com

as SybilAnn...so I paint...I have a old song in my head I can't get rid of ...

"I wan be sedated...."

yours in the moment,

secure in myself and knowing I have done that all I can do, and I did it to my vey best ability, the rest...I'll try to let go of the rest...

Yours in the effort to let it go.... so I may grow, and allow others that I love to grow and learn in their own ways.

Heather/Sybil Ann

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Bad! Kitty Art Studio

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NEW Art!

This is the quote that inspired the work...

Why not simply honor your parents, love your children, help your brothers and sisters, be faithful to your friends, care for your mate with devotion, complete your work cooperatively and joyfully, assume responsibility for problems, practice virtue without first demanding it of others, understand the highest truths yet retain an ordinary manner? That would be true clarity, true simplicity, true mastery.
Lao Tzu

***

the bottom picture is really closer to the actual colors off the painting, but I made the top one real light so you can see the stars glowing in the background. The Background is a wonderful shade of plum/marron, and the words on the painting (just in case you can't read them)

Understand

down to earth

tranquility

balance.

18 x 24

oils mixed media

$2oo.oo + shipping

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Quote of the Day

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To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved. Love is the sweetest thing in the world, but to be trusted throws upon him who receives that trust an obligation that he must not fail to discharge.
David McKay

***

Working again today at

http://www.astrocenter.com

9am to 1:30 PST

as Sybil Ann...The great mystic/psychic guide that lives inside my head.

I will do my very best again today, and hope that it is better than yesterday, which outside of working with my old clients that have been missing me on Astrocenter Line...the day itself...BLEW CHUNKS....Then late in the evening, I was gifted money by someone who I have been working with

(a private client not from someone from astrocenter, I DO have ethics...Lord help me in a world where very few really do)

to help her with her career goals, and she had accomplished them, in a huge way... And got a big bonus too....So she shared some of it with me, making me promise to have FUN with it, and NOT pay bills with it.

OK I'm going to have fun...This weekend... That'll be what the four of us do together...Movies, maybe Chuck E Cheese or something...Anything to take our minds off of the oldest who is still missing...And not communicating...Worry is the worst thing in the world. I hate to not knowing that he is OK....Even though I do "know" he's ok...I "know" he's not too.

He is breaking my heart, and his brothers too.

So... We will go have some FUN with the gift of love that was sent for us all, from someone who could have kept all her money and not shared any of it with ME and she did it anyway...Super karmic brownie points for you my dear!

So, Thank You Universe for the kindness of strangers, and the Love that is coming back into my world.

Sure Life Coaches have problems...Sure psychics are blindsided...Why?

Because that's how humans learn.

We are not supposed to know everything all the time...

How would we ever learn or change or grow?

I'm may be psychic, I may be the next step in the evolution of Human Beings (my brain is different, proven by a lot of science and repeated MRI scans (14 in total...later in the years, at first it was CT and Pet Scans and EEG's...scans and tests galore...the MRI's came later when it was invented) being a test subject as a younger woman at FSU, because I was just going around willy-nilly healing people (Tent Churches that were big in the South at the time) and the word got out to a scientist that was working with other "psychics" to determine how they can do what they do...They found out that I use a lot more of my gray matter than most people do...I mean like a bunch more...and my bio chemistry is totally unexplainable...they would have loved to lock me into a room and study me like a test rat, because of my metabolism and Nero-transmitters...Which I seem to have more of than most other folks too...Fun huh?)

Whatever...I don't freaking care... I just want to make it though the day, like every other Human being today...

and so I will go forth and do my very absolute best at all I do today.

I am the woman standing on the precipice....And I just jumped, free falling into my unknown...With faith in myself this time, may it give me the wings I am testing...And a good updraft, that would be good too.

Watch out world...

Here I come.

Much love in the moment,

Heather/Sybil Ann

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Sybil Ann Tells All

Quote for the day!

*****

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
Eleanor Roosevelt

*****

Working again today between 9am and 1:30 pst at

http://www.astrocenter.com

as Sybil Ann...Yesterday there were tech difficulties so I was unable to re-start my work schedule, which is hard because I had to really get pumped up to go back in the first place...

It is a good job, with a huge company (the Largest on the web world wide), but they pay (the psychics) terrible. I guess it does not matter, as long as I make the paycheck and take care of the household needs, that's what matters.

I worked on my face painting yesterday, and will be finishing it today, I'll post pictures later, if I can.

I am not depressed about going back to work, but I am battling my own inner depression about the facts of life as they are. All I can do, is all I can do about it, and have faith that it will work out the way it's supposed to.

I am bursting at the seams with new art. The commissioned work arrived yesterday, and I can finally post a public picture for everyone to see...After talking about it for more than a month daily...I figured you all would want to at least see it. I was told that it was well received by the person who it was made for. That's great, I hope she really liked it.

So, Off I go to work, do my very best at every task I set myself to, control only my own reactions to this days events, and live with intent and love.

Trust me, that will be enough for today.

Yours in the moment,

Heather/Sybil Ann

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My Newest work: "Quite Place 2" oils, 18x24 $200.00 + shipping

See what a difference lighting can make? I got some crappy ass lighting for photography here in the Old BAD! Kitty Art Studio, so forgive me; so I'm a little low tech. OK ...the blue one really better represents the blues in this painting, the other one better shows the details, and the fact that it is a pinkish, reddish, blue/gray with yellows and blacks...Can't see any of that in these two pictures...But it's a safe little cove where the waves are lapping gently and quietly, the rocks are covered in lichen and starfish, glimmering in the almost twilight sky. The clouds are under lit with the reds, and pink/orange/violet that I love, and the water is more of the Prussian blues, crimson reds and peach spots of the sky above highlights. The waves are just barley capped in little bits of a high violet/blue. It's really quite nice, and the depth is something I am really proud of...The technical parts...They are solid on those, This is what my manager would call...Your "Fine Art" Heather which = $$$...Lord love him... That's good, but it's the feeling of the painting that soothes my soul thats the wealth of it for me...being safe and enclosed; but also wide open to everything; water means release to me, I have the cove as a horse shoe shape to channel the positive in (towards me on the beach unseen) and let go of the the bad... Go out into the big huge vastness....To be watered down, diluted... And OUTSIDE myself...That was a good thing this last ten days or so.

This is from memory of a place in Southern Oregon Coast called Captains Cove or something like that...that we vacationed at when my oldest was just about 4 years old...It was the most pretty place I have ever seen during sunset at the Oregon Coast...And that's saying something!

So...I'll try for better pictures later, but...You know how I am.

The commissioned work went out yesterday, should arrive today, (only had to go to SeaTac) and then I can share pictures of that completed work too, can't wait to share that one, it was super fun to live with my Saturn Fairy, and I was really quite sad to see her go so soon!

Self Portrait

oils, mixed media
18x24
almost done with the face, I wish the pictures were better,she has one eye that has a screaming little man in it (Found objects on dog walks)...And the other is a button (same as the man) that is B&W and has a Bomber balloon (what are those called?) and says plan-R on it. She has lace and pearls, and the media of her face is cut up little bits of fabric, and found scraps...Laid together to create the "idea" or Impression of a face. The background is going to be fun to finish up...And I am not sure if her face is done either...We will see. But I like looking at her...Me, she sums up how I am feeling....And what I am doing to make it better, turn the weight into fuel baby....AND BURN!
I'll post more pictures later.
Love to all,
Heather
http://www.badkittyartstudio.com
http://www.sybilanntellsall.com

BAD! Kitty Art Studio ~ Portland Oregon ~ Artist Blog ~Quote for the day

BAD! Kitty Art Studio &

Sybil Ann Tells All

Quote of the day.

*****

Ten Spiritual Tonics

1. Stop worrying. Worry kills life.

2. Begin each day with a prayer. It will arm your soul.

3. Control appetite. Over-indulgence clogs body and mind.

4. Accept your limitations . . .

5. Don't envy. It wastes time and energy.

6. Have faith in people. Cynicism sours the disposition.

7. Find a hobby. It will relax your nerves.

8. Read a book a week to stimulate imagination and broaden your views.

9. Spend some time alone for the peace of solitude and silence.

10. Try to want what you have, instead of spending your strength trying to get what you want.
Abraham L. Feinberg

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Good Morning Art Loving and Life Living Peeps Everywhere.

I am having a lot of fun with this new self portrait...

And I'm, going to have to make this short today because I want to take pictures of it before I run out of time...And one of the new quiet place painting...if I spend a bunch of time writing I won't have time. I Re-start back to my day job today. Working 9am to 1:30 (PST), as Sybil Ann over at

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so if you really need to talk to me during those times...You will Have to give me a call over there.

I am looking forward to today....I hope all goes well, and I get a lot of phone calls and I feel good about the work and love I'll be giving my clients from that system again.

Gotta bring around the goodness back to good old me someday, right...we can hope.

We do what we have to do, we do the very best we can do at every moment, and we pray that's enough.

So stay tuned for some quick pictures...and for goodness sakes, go buy some art! Book a reading! Something, I'm working a D-A-Y job again people....you know what that means...time management....aaaaarrrrgggghhhh!

One of my favorites!

Love to all,

Heather/Sybil Ann

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BAD! Kitty Art Studio ~ Portland Oregon ~ Artist Blog ~Quote for the day

BAD! Kitty Art Studio

Quote of the Day!

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In life, the first thing you

must do

is decide

what you

really want.

Weigh the costs and the results.

Are the results worthy of the costs?

Then make up your mind completely

and go after your goal with

all your might.
Alfred Montapert

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Choices.

That is what I have been doing, and thinking about

for the last 8 days.

I am having to accept things as they are, and not as I want them to be.

I am letting go

of what it means to be doing it all

on my own. I have to go back to having a regular "Day Job"

all though I'd rather not... I really, really would rather not

contribute to a large corporation anymore....Facts are

I have to. Bills have to be paid, art is "Ifcome" not Income, and

my Intuitive Life Coaching business, is going to take time and

more money (advertising, word of mouth) to make it profitable enough to make up for my normal weekly paycheck.

I was so hoping that my business would take off, and I would

be able to just do the kind of work everyday that makes me feel

wonderful about myself and the world I live in.

Facts are....It is not working out that way, and I have to deal with the

facts as they are, not as I want them to be.

I will not give up working hard to create a client base with both my artwork and my Intuitive Life Coaching...Never say Die...

I was talking "business" with my manager this weekend...Not really all that much fun, to tell the truth...And well, we talked about

my plans for the Art Career this next year. Shows, Galleries, cafe's....Competing...What? Well...I still have the unreasonable
(or so my manager thinks) desire to do this thing my way.

I want to sell my work for what I want to sell it for, not what some gallery, art agent...So on what's to "do" with it.

I still want to BUCK the system.

I don't want my work to be seen in a way that makes

people feel as though they couldn't have it, or worse "that's pretty, but I am here to buy coffee, food, get my haircut, fill in the blank, not to buy art."

I don't want to do the Ebay route either...Feels cheap and tasteless, plus the well documented OCD I have about

being told what my work and time and soul

are worth...By the lowest bidder.

I set my prices so low...And I haggle, barter, and put things on Lay-a-way. Would I be able to do any of those things if I was in a contract exclusively for an agent, or gallery? Nope.

Would I make more sales? Maybe...If you prescribe to the old capitalistic mold of "if it's really high priced then it must be worth it, and I am buying prestige not soul altering art".

I don't prescribe to that ideology at all.

I am truly a stubborn

OUTSIDER artist

because I refuse to play the ART Game.

I do what I do...Like it? Well then buy something... that would be better than telling me how great it is, not that I don't want praise (praise me, praise me!)...But you know what I mean.

I am a System Bucker.

I'll sell my art like the folks down south do...On the side of the road,

or online, or in my studio....Without giving up my principles.

Think I'll never make it "big" like that?

Well my well paid Manager thinks I am crazy, that I am ready to take my work to the next level, that I need to do that show in New York and LA....That I need to become more serious about my pricing and what I am doing to my "value" in the Market as an artist....blah, blah blah...

you can guess what I said to that.

Screw that!

I can and will do it my way.

I'll prove that I can love what I do, do it with intent, and without snotty behavior, and still be successful.

Watch me.

So today, I will post a picture of the work I recently finished...A new "Quiet Place Series"...I needed one this last week, ( a quite safe place) so I painted one for myself, I'll show it later. I am also working on a really fun self portrait....

that is oils and mixed media, I'll show the work in progress, just for fun.

Love to all,

be you today, as you are,

and look to the west if you need a slap of

GRRRRRR.

That'll be me shaking the life out of the old way....

And bringing in the new way.

Commerce with conscience....Being the Change I want to see in the world through stubbornness....Well it's working for today...

it can work, everyday!

Yours in the Moment,

Heather/Sybil Ann

http://www.badkittyartstudio.com

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Quote of the day!

I'm BACK!

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The old thought that one cannot be rich except at the expense of his neighbor, must pass away. True prosperity adds to the richness of the whole world, such as that of the man who makes two trees grow where only one grew before. The parasitical belief in prosperity as coming by the sacrifices of others has no place in the mind that thinks true. “My benefit is your benefit, your success is my success,” should be the basis of all our wealth.

~Anne Rix Miltz

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THE MAN WHO THINKS HE CAN: If you think you are beaten, you are, If you think that you dare not, you don’t, If you’d like to win, but you think you can’t, It’s almost certain you won’t. If you think you’ll lose, you’ve lost, For out in the world you’ll find, Success begins with a fellow’s will, It’s all in the state of mind. If you think you are outclassed, you are, You’ve got to think high to rise, You’ve got to be sure of yourself before You can ever win a prize. Life’s battles don’t always go To the stronger or faster man, But soon or late the man who wins Is the man who thinks he can. NOTE: A copy of this inspirational poem hangs on the wall in Arnold Palmer’s office. Arnie has made it a practice to read the poem at the start of each day. It serves him as a source of inspiration, courage and motivation that enables him to attack whatever problems and challenges that day might bring. It works for Arnie. It will work for you. Try it. ~Arnold Palmer

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I am rich and proud of every penny I own. I made my money by my own effort, in free exchange and through the voluntary consent of every man I dealt with - the voluntary consent of those who employed me when I started, the voluntary consent of those who work for me now, the voluntary consent of those who buy my product. I shall answer all the questions you are afraid to ask me openly. Do I wish to pay my workers more than their services are worth to me? I do not. Do I wish to sell my product for less than my customers are willing to pay me? I do not. Do I wish to sell it at a loss or give it away? I do not. If this is evil, do whatever you please about me, according to whatever standards you hold. These are mine. I am earning my own living, as every honest man must. I refuse to accept as guilt the fact of my own existence and the fact that I must work in order to support it. I refuse to accept as guilt the fact that I am able to do it and do it well. I refuse to accept as guilt the fact that I am able to do it better than most people - the fact that my work is of greater value than the work of my neighbours and that more men are willing to pay me. I refuse to apologize for my ability - I refuse to apologize for my success - I refuse to apologize for my money.

~Ayn Rand

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I added three very differant views of wealth and success this mornig, I think it’s important to Be Successful, you already trust that You Will Be…the power of thinking and asking questions that get your postive answers and guidance to your brightest future. Shall we forget our humanity in this action?

The fact that you are able to read this at all today, should make you feel grateful.

What can you do for your closest unkown person to help their day feel that way for just one moment?

It’s cold out there…have any extra blankets you can share…how about Tuna or P-nut butter?

Think About it, in this life you will Get What You Give and only that.

Shall we forget that we must learn that compition is good, that it makes the best rise to the top, but that does not mean that you can’t be successful at what You want to do. That does not mean you have to take somethong away or be “better” than everyone else…I just want to be MY Best.

I want to help change the world with my gifts, and my Artwork and my book that will be coming out soon….and make a guiltless living, and do it in a way that makes me feel good about what I do, and how I live every single day.

Why should I feel guilty, or afraid?

I have won and lost, and I am still here.

I am reflecting on the power of self control today.

I do what I can, every day.

Then I move on the next thing and I do my best.

Some days are great, some are less than exciting…

but it’s ALL MINE.

I win and lose and I do it with my full being.

I wouldn’t want it any other way.

I am a success when I say I am.

I Am. Because I made it...and I'm still me, and SANE.

Have a wonderful day,

Heather/Sybil Ann

http://www.sybilanntellsall.com

(***Miss K…small note of thanks for your Ghost writing on that other interview I had…it was so great I had to use it on my site you magic lady you!!!…you are wonderful, and have felt your love coming at me over the last horrible week….thank you so much my friend! I am Blessed to know you, so very blessed***):)

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At least GO check out my sites! Shheeeessh! have been working hard on both of them ( so I would not go crazy...) and I think they are looking pretty good! I also am offering free advertising on the Sybil Ann site…to all people who need a free classified AD for something... Check it out! AND Lots of other FREE stuff TO LEARN about…fun and cool! Sheesh….I am now begging for attention? No…I just worked real hard for more than a week on them both…and wel…”see my pretty picture Mom?” Kinda like that. :)

Much Love…I AM still swimming UPSTREAM…!!!!

(***Carrie, Sara, Liz, Kelly *** Thank you for all the great positive PURE LOVE I felt from each of you all of this horrinble weeek. I am really fine, just crazy busy, I promise to make special time with each of you soon, I need and want to do that....but my gifts have been needed to be really directed...lazer like...and so all my energy has gone to dioing my best. I LOVE YOU GUYS!***)

BAD! Kitty Art Studio ~ Portland Oregon ~ Artist Blog ~Quote for the day

BAD! Kitty Art Studio

Quote of the day

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One of life's primal situations; the game of hide and seek. Oh, the delicious thrill of hiding while the others come looking for you, the delicious terror of being discovered, but what panic when, after a long search, the others abandon you! You mustn't hide too well. You mustn't be too good at the game. The player must never be bigger than the game itself.

Jean Baudrillard

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Monday is here again? I am having one of those mornings where I feel depleted of all energy.

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Today I work, because that's all I know to do. I work at my businesses, I paint my pain and fear, I stay present in the moment...

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I have faith that this family will pull through this difficult time, because I love them all so much.

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I am working...Focusing on what I can do, not on what I am helpless to do. Action is required, I know that and I will do it.

***

I have to not lose sight of myself here...Keep in control of my own reactions...And try to continue my life, as it is.

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Good news though!!! My friend and art patron wrote a wonderful review of the painting she just received "My Forrest is on fire, I wanted you to know" on her blog, you can read it here.

(READ IT PLEASE!!!)

It really made my morning to read that!

That's three new art owners in the last month that are super happy with their works...That is so satisfying to me, to know that they still connected to the work, after only seeing pictures (and my crappy pictures at that) of the work and not knowing me from Adam....They had a bunch of faith in their purchases...And then when they got them home (all out of state...Funny I can't seem to sell a lick of work here in Portland!) they were all so very happy. They could still return them up to ten days from now for a full refund (minus shipping costs) if they change their minds, but I don't have any feelings that they will be doing that. That makes me happy, to know that something I did, created out of my brain, hands and soul... Bought Joy to another persons life....That's good stuff!

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I am in the moment...I am present and sane and ready for the days events.

I hope you all have a wonderful day, much love,

Heather

If your needy needs for artwork are really strong today well...Here's a handy little link so you can fix that>>>and I will keep the Art sale going for the rest of the week...Scroll down the blog to see the art on special & there is lot's of it!

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Another funny little thing I found...

Your Porn Star Name Is...

Tight Cherry

What's Your Porn Star Name?

Fun little thing...

Your Life Path Number is 7

Your purpose in life is to find truth and meaning You are very spiritual, and you are interested in the mysteries of life.You are quite analytical and a great thinker. You have many theories and insights.A life of solitude is perfect for you. You need time to think and do things your way. In love, you are quite charming. You attract many with your confidence and wit. While you enjoy being alone, sometimes you take it to an extreme.You can become too isolated, shutting out loved ones and friends.Express yourself a little bit more, and you'll be surprised where it takes you!

WhatIs Your Life Path Number?

BTW...my life path number is 7....that just didn't show up in the code...hit the header to this post to find out yours! Heather

BAD! Kitty Art Studio ~ Portland Oregon ~ Artist Blog ~Quote for the day

BAD! Kitty Art Studio

Quote of the day

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May every soul that touches mine- Be it the slightest contact- Get there from some good; Some little grace; one kindly thought; One aspiration yet unfelt; One bit of courage For the darkening sky; One gleam of faith To brave the thickening ills of life; One glimpse of brighter skies Beyond the gathering mists- To make this life worth while.
George Eliot

***

Happy Sunday!

I am still working hard on creating income....it's harder when it's Mate Man's Birthday today....and I can't make him his Birthday dinner, because of lack of money...It sucks...He is 40 today, and I really wanted to make it special for him...You only turn 40 one time in your life...But what I keep reminding myself is that we can celebrate his special day as soon as we can, it's not the day it's the Man that we celebrate anyway.

Birthday's have always been a big deal for me, most of my own were suck feasts...As a child and as an adult, I was born in September...And it always seems that the kids need new school clothes or some other thing comes up and my Birthday is usually no big deal, a lot of times forgotten all together.

(Never by my Wonderful Mate Man)

I've gotten used to that...But the people I love...I want them to always have the greatest day on their Birthdays...So I always try real hard to make it so.

I have faith that the things that I can do to show my love and affection for this Fine Man, don't have anything to do with how much money I have or if I can bake a cake, make his favorite dinner and give him presents for him today or not.

It's about loving him to near death....That's what I can do, and I will do my absolute best at that job...Trust me.

So I hope you all have a great day, enjoy the ones you love, and rest so that you may be great for the upcoming week.

All my love,

Heather/Sybil
Buy some art...it's Sunday...need I remind you it's National Buy Heather's Art day again? A NEW National holiday that happens once a week...don't miss out this Sunday! Check down the blog...I have lot's on SUPER SALE this weekend only!

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My friend and art patron just did the nicest write-up about me and my work on her blog...I just wanted to say thank you...and check HER out...she super rocks!
Love you Kelly, Heather

BAD! Kitty ART SALE!!!!

Sky & Water Jungle water

oils on recucled wood, framed

20x24

$125.00+shipping

Fairy World #10 Moon Bathing

Oils and mixed media

24x24 $175.00+shipping

Fairy Worl 12 Batting a thousand

oils and mixed media

18 x 24 $175.00 + shipping

Fairy world 13 Fairy Notes

International award winner!

18x24 framed oils & mixed media

$175.00+ shipping

The light at the end

oils and mixed media on recycled wood framed

24 x 20

$175.00+ shipping

Fairy World 8 Midnight at the fairy debutant ball

oils mixed media 24x24 $175.00 + shipping

Fairy World #7 Pocket fairy

oils mixed media

18x24 $175.00 + shipping

Fairy World #4 If wishes were...

oils mixed media 24x18 $125.00+shipping

Fairy World #3 The Bride

oils mixed media

24 x18 $125.00+shipping

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All of these paintings can be picked up in the studio as well as being shipped.

These are all reduced by at least 20% of my already really affordable prices...what are you waiting for?

Buy Some Art today.

You deserve the Orginals in life...and living artist deseverve to survive.

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please use the above email address to contact me about buying any of these works for these reduced prices.

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Get a psychic reading or intuitive life coaching session...my spirit guide's name is Sybil Ann...so that's why I use two names...for my work.

You will get free minutes with every purchase, and it's a flat fee of $1.00 per minute aren't you and YOUR REAL questions worth $1.00 a minute?

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BAD! Kitty Art Studio ~ Portland Oregon~ ART SALE OF THE DAY!

Little man and the moon Fine art Magnet

$7.50 + shipping

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Minky Stool (fake mink fur) 1800's bottom of a Victorian baby chair turned into a wonderful sturdy stool!
$75.00 + Shipping or you can pick up in studio For all of these works browntruman5@msn.com to buy this work

Fairy World 2 Innocence
oils & mixed media 18x 24 unframed
$175.00 + shipping

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Fairy World 11 The Journey

Mixed media collage on recycled wood framed

18x24 $175.00 + shipping

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Cracker Jack Mary

Mixed media 8x10 framed

$100.00 + shipping

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It's pretty simple, I need to sell some art so that I may meet some basic needs so in that effort I am offering the works above for the weekend of 2/10/06 through 2/12/06 til midnight for these prices. Please consider purchasing some art from a living artist...Namely me. Thanks for your support! Please buy something I am out of peanut butter and I have three boys!

BAD! Kitty Art Studio

Quote for the day

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There is nothing so degrading as the constant anxiety about one's means of livelihood. . . . Money is like a sixth sense without which you cannot make a complete use of the other five.
William Somerset Maugham

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My day is full of family and working on ways to produce some income. Isn't that fun sounding? I hate not having enough money to take care of basic things...And all I ever do (sometimes I feel like) is work. I work because I love to work, but also the need to produce income to help my family is always a constant anxiety, it never leaves you, it's always there, and there is never a vacation from it.

So today I work on my web site(s) to hopefully better improve my sales in both areas...Because sitting around pissing and moaning about how broke I am won't do ANYTHING...So I DO...I act...I take action to correct the problem with an open heart and mind....And a whole bunch of Faith.

On ward and upward...On we go.

Be well and enjoy your day,

Heather

Buy some art! You deserve the originals in this life....And I deserve to eat!

Asking for the sale>>>

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