Monday, December 24, 2007

BAD! Kitty's End of the year Roundtable

" I Am"
by HMBT 2006
Laminated Collage
Good Morning the day before the Christmas Holiday Day, here in the states and elsewhere.
Whew! what a mouthfull...
OK, Hey how ya'll doing this morning?

That better?


So round these parts we don't ever set resolutions or make set in stone goals each year either.

We tend to reflect a bunch on what the last twelve months have been, what we learned from our experiences and like a house of scientist, dissect what the real issues were/are in our progress, path wise.

In fact we take on missions each year as a group and individually. The group ones we all talk about, as the year ends but....the personal ones, each person can share or not as they see fit.

We love to think of these talks as a round table of light warriors. It's really great when the Earth's own light is at it's lowest to charge our inner lanterns up real good, before beginning a new year long mission...well that's a no brainer, of course.


A small body of determined spirits fired by an unquenchable faith in their mission can alter the course of history.
Gandhi (1869 - 1948)

We had one of those weekends, where people got used to being close up on each other, (again) with out each person having a given set schedule to follow and perform well at. Saturday was given over to going into the world and getting every. single . thing. done and quick, so that we don't have to go out into the world again until the madness subsides. Which won't be until after the Holiday returns and Super sales are made and had. Ahhhh the joys of stuff, of getting and giving more stuff...sweet it makes my ass twitch.


If a glimpse of the future is possible, it must come from an intimacy with the present clarified by the great works of the past.
Robert Kaplan


We Spent Sunday putting up our little tree, it's one of those pre-lit 4 foot tall, pull it out of the box and plug it in types. Really this works best for all of us...we don't celebrate the holiday as most folks do...we love giving gifts to each other! We don't buy anything except on special days. Birthdays, and Christmas. So, it's our time to have an excuse to party, and play at years end. The tree, we can take it or leave it. We would never cut one down, anyway...we used to do that many years back...because that's what everyone does...set it up, look at it...take it down again...throw the once work of art tree in the dump. Ummm, after my awakening, I could no longer do this. ever. again.

That new choice happened at an end of the year round table...several moons back.

This year we have been talking about living. I mean the way we live, eat and need every

We have decided to build a recycled home that joins with the land instead of rests upon it. We have decided to find land and acquire it. Then we will work weekends or whatever and build a home into/with the land, one that takes care of us and takes nothing from the grid (power, water, ect.).

Then we will go live there.

As free Humans. Not slaves to the Grid of suck you dry til you die.


There are reveries so deep, reveries which help us descend so deeply within ourselves that they rid us of our history. They liberate us from our name. These solitudes of today return us to the original solitudes.
Gaston Bachelard (1884 - 1962)


We plan to start this project asap. If you've been reading my blog for any amount of time, then you know what happens when we make choices in this home. Things begin to happen...quick. That's just how we roll.

Plans as I said before, are being made, and well laid.

Last years round table brought us to the conclusion that we would never be able to buy a home of our own on the west coast. So, we loaded up, (after a years research and work) and moved to Kentucky. Land of rolling hills and cheap land, and so many other great things I can't even tell you.

OK, so now we have been here, we have found employment, we have looked around.


The future enters into us, in order to transform itself in us, long before it happens.
Rainer Maria Rilke (1875 - 1926)


Now we know that we do not want to wait for the housing/mortgage crisis, as a matter of fact we don't want a mortgage at all. We want a home. We do not want to be slaves. This years round table has been about that fact and what options are open to people like us, who have bad credit, not a lot of money, and weird ideas about green living not just being about slapping some solar panels on a suburban home. (not that that's not wonderful, every one should do it) We want sustainable housing. I am a farmer, I want to grow my own food.

After growing my own daily food for more than a decade in a city environment, I can't stand to drive to the store for lettuce...and fruit. Are you kidding me?


There's more to being an environmentalist than occasionally signing an online petition and mailing your check to the Sierra Club. Really the most effective environmental actions you can take have to do with crafting your home and surroundings, your workplace decisions and your investment habits.
Alex Steffen


So, we are going to build a home, off grid, out of rammed earth used tires.

Plans and research on the property, home systems (electricity, water, heat, ect.) are being learned and researched, and building plans drawn up for feasibility studies. It's our right as humans to use our power of money and choice to shape our destiny. The Trumans are all about questioning authority, and making our own rules.
This years mission to is learn as much as possible, and find land.
That's all.
Anything we get done more than that will be gravy.
Our mission of course means that we need to be in good shape physically for this undertaking. So, part of my personal sub-mission to to re-acquire my old strength as much as possible, for the hard labor ahead.
Groovy baby.
So that's it in a nutshell from here in the blue grass.
I'll see you all again after the Holiday madness...with new art, no doubt.
A special word of thanks to all my art patrons out there, you know who you are, thank you for your support of this living artists...your purchases allowed me to create for yet another year. Thank you for supporting a living artist, may we all enjoy a great return on our investments in the coming years together.

Hope is a state of mind, not of the world . . . Either we have hope or we don't; it is a dimension of the soul, and it's not essentially dependent on some particular observation of the world or estimate of the situation. Hope is not prognostication. It is an orientation of the spirit, and orientation of the heart; it transcends the world that is immediately experienced, and is anchored somewhere beyond its horizons ... Hope, in this deep and powerful sense, is not the same as joy that things are going well, or willingness to invest in enterprises that are obviously heading for success, but rather and ability to work for something because it is good, not just because it stands a chance to succeed. The more propitious the situation in which we demonstrate hope, the deeper the hope is. Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out.
Vaclav Havel


I end this post with the best wishes for everyone around the globe reading my words...and those who don't too. We as a family, hope that your lives are all richer in the ways that matter most in the coming year.

Happy Holidays to all,


When I was younger, my ambition was to be one of the people who made a difference in this world. My hope still is to leave the world a little bit better for my having been here.It's a wonderful life and I love it.
Jim Henson

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Art you can Afford for the Holidays! Last hour on these auctions!

(Updated Thursday morning 12/20/07)

OK, hold on...this is the last HOUR you all have to bid on these wonderful, intelligent works of art. Going, Going...Gone time!

Nuff get busy!

I can still get them to you in time for Christmas if you need them to be somewhere inside the USA. Come on People, help an artist out and buy some art today!

Your Mission if you choose to accept bid on my artworks (Umm, would be good) and then sit back and smile knowingly to yourself...yes, that'll do'll sit back and be so proud of yourself for being a capitalist consumer with a soul and conscience, you'll even be able to eat that extra slice of pie and not worry about your'll be in the art with Soul Zone...calories don't count here!

Check it out!

Have a great day, even if you don't bid on my brilliant work, really I mean it... have a nice day.

(I'm asking Santa for some modesty, it's the only thing I don't have too much of).

Heather McSassy-pants


This part of the post is from Monday 12/17/07:

Just one quote today friends, it's a busy time for everyone...and I need to rant a bit...just FYI)


I think that what we're seeking is an experience of being alive, so that our life experiences on the purely physical plane will have resonance's within our own innermost being and reality, so that we actually feel the rapture of being alive.
Joseph Campbell (1904 - 1987)

Please help keep living artists alive by buying art that resonates with you. If it's not my work...well, OK fine...*lip curl* but no, OK really...go find a real, live human (any where in the world) and buy some art from that living artist today. The work of art you buy today, could save two lives/souls...yours and the artists. Think about it.

There are links to amazing talented people on my side roll whatever it's called. Honestly if it ain't my work that floats your boat, (don't leave til you at least give me a chance to see first!) then find some one who is a living creative soul and buy something that is more talisman/magic than a "gift" or art. Art is about soul, and I truly believe that every real artist, out there in the world, is looking to create, form and build...resonance. My work is about resonance, and I only figured that out recently while being interviewed for an newspaper interview about a show opening. She [the reporter] asked me what I was trying to express with my work to the viewer. Immediately I said, "resonance". "What does that mean?" She asked.

*internal sidebar aka as the Oh Shit! factor*

I tell you it's at moments like these that are small and unimportant (seemingly), that my most profound truths have been reviled. I scratched my head, and thought about it...well, yeah so what the hell did that mean?

It means I am talking to you, the viewer (taps microphone, is this thing on?).

*yes I said that out loud, it didn't get printed, hehe*

I am asking questions, showing my version of answers sometimes, and sometimes I am opening a door for you. I mean, when I created it [the art] it was about finding and opening that door for it's your turn....wanna take a spin?

A lot of people want and need to know what was the muse, or inspiration.

For just me I can usually say with a straight was create or destroy something and soon, or else. Most of the time I am not thinking when I am working...except to solve problems and be a director of sorts. Once I feel the painting out, I go for it and figure out the 'what' of it later.

May I ask...What do you see?

There is an artist in the world some where right now that can make you want to know, make you want to open every door, every day... just in your own life. There is a work of art that if you see and feel it and can own it, it will change your world. Simple. Fact. Art is. Magic.

That's way more fun than almost any other type of gift you can buy...with paper (not so much paper anymore) money.

So...just a random OCD thoughts for this morning, from me...

that ordinary crazy lady down the street....

who paints and creates

her own world every day...

wait for it....wait for it...

double back flip off the soapbox.


Nine out of ten doctors agree that buying original, one of a kind art work, will make your entire life a better place to be. Oh, and it'll make your smile brighter and more sexy too. (results may vary for different people)


See some of my art [doors/talismans] on auction and closing soon below.

*I am wearing a old Santa Hat today for going out in the world, and to keep my ears warm, I only get to wear my Santa Hat once a year!*

Just because I am going shopping today, I wear the hat,'s because I hate shopping, and this time of year makes my skin crawl with the hoards of people, bad parking and grouchy sales staff. So I wear the hat as a defense mechanism. People smile at me first. I remind them of the silliness of this whole thing, I know exactly what I need help with and I say please and thank you. *side note* If you are ever wearing a Santa hat while shopping in an attempt to keep yourself from wanting to knock people down in the must also be pleasant and have good's kinda like rule number one of Santa Hat wearing. Wouldn't want any first timers to go out and make their heads explode accidentally from not knowing the rules. Whew...glad I remembered that tid-bit.

*wicked grins*

Every move I make, has meaning. I am art.


OK, now out into the snow and pick up the very last things on the list...and I did pack my handy timer, to keep things moving along.

Happy day to you!

Heather McRanty-Santy

'This Apple'

Now has one bid! 1 day left on the auction. It's at 75.00

Whoo Hoo!


Now has one bid. It's at 75.00

1 day left on this auction! Yippeee!

Mask Man

No bids yet. 1 day left on the auction.
Bid Now!

'Traveling Man'

No bids yet. 1 day on the auction left.

Bid today!

These paintings just went up on the auction block this past Monday morning.

No reserve and 10 day auctions. (as of today there is 1 day left)

Here is a speedy and easy link to see them.

View My Auctions Items

Have a great day!

You can always see more of my work

that's for sale at my web site: (I recently updated it, so check it out)


Just in case you guys don't know about my BAD! Kitty Satisfaction Policy, here it is:

I offer a no questions asked 7 day return policy.

(7 days after YOU get it IN your home)

If you don't like it, let me know and then wrap it back up,(carefully) and then send it back.

I'll refund you the sale price, minus the shipping charges.

No problems, no hassles, no waiting.

Art is subjective, I get that, so just relax.

And for the love of art, take a look,you never know what you will discover!


I am a full time, self-taught artist.

All of my works come with a Certificate of Authenticity.

All of my artworks are signed and dated both front and back.

All of my art arrives at your home, ready to hang out of the box.

All of my art comes with the quote or story behind it's creation.

I usually ship the day after your is payment is made.



After you make your payment, I will send you an email notification with a tracking number and an estimated time of arrival. I will also want to stay in touch with until the work gets to you and I know that it has arrived safely and you are happy with your purchase.

International buyers are more than welcome!

Please email me with your location before buying if you are an International buyer, so that I can get you an exact shipping quote.

I am happy to combine shipping, so if you want to buy more than one work, I will gladly ship them the most economical and safest way.


I ship UPS/FedEx (for works 18"X 24" and larger) and I include full insurance on every work. I will ship internationally with a message before shipping to confirm your shipping costs. All works come ready to hang, just unpack and enjoy.

I take all my own photo's, which means my work is always much better in person. All pictures are taken outdoors, in natural light and have no touching up done afterwards, except for cropping.

You will not find anything like my work anywhere on the web, these are my original designs and creations.

I offer my work here on my web site/blog first, then they will move on to Art Auctions and then to Galleries around the country for exhibition and sale.

I welcome large buyers, private collectors, commercial buyers and galleries alike and will be happy to work out a deal to everyone's satisfaction, just drop me a line.

I also offer Art-layaway for those art patrons who are on a budget, please just email me for more information or click on this link to read more about my policy on art rentals and layaway.


I have been selling my artwork for almost a decade and to date have sold over 475 works around the world.

Thank you again for taking the time to look at my work.

Here's hoping you have a wonderful day,


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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

My Daemon - From the Golden Compass

So, we went to see this movie over the weekend. It was good, I thought the story could use some tightening up, (I am a Major pain in the butt about scripts) but the kids loved it and the special effects were great. The sound track was over bearing-ly loud, but that could have been the movie theaters fault. The part I liked best (of course) was the fact that in their world your soul walked beside you in an animal form. I loved that idea so much!!! So, I found this little test on the website for the movie and here it is, my daemon. Take the little test about me to see if your opinion of me changes my daemon, and then take your own test to find out your own daemon. It's fun.

Have a great day everyone, and don't forget to scroll down one post to see the most current auctions, just in time for the Holidays.

Have a great day,

Heather and her Snow leopard

Friday, December 07, 2007

No one appreciates the very special genius of your conversation as the dog does.

Quote in the title by: Christopher Morley (1890 - 1957)

This is our new addition to our family.
Being held by our youngest child, Max the "other artist in residence".
Tuefel Von Oz.
(German for Devil of OZ)

Oz with his punk rock t-shirt because it's cold here and he only has baby fur. He is 15 weeks old. His shirt says "Dog save the Queen" on it....too cute right? Click the link to see where I bought it, if you have a punk rock dog that needs outfitting.

This is Dallas also known around here as Mr. Wiggles. It's funny Oz's eyes are dark warm brown, and Dallas's eyes are bright light blue. I thought it was funny that the flash made their eyes like this so I left it alone.
We didn't name Dallas...we rescued him a couple years back and he came with the name...he comes to Stinky and Mr.McWiggles now.

Outside of a dog, a book is man's best friend. Inside of a dog, it's too dark to read.
Groucho Marx (1895 - 1977)
We went out to look around our new state a few weeks back and found a huge flea market, being that we are southern fried flea market addicts we went in.
Walking around we came across this lady who was a breeder of small dogs. A very nice breeder not a puppy mill.
She had lots of designer puppies and Chi-hua-a-hua's and one little lonely Carin Terrier (like from the wizard of OZ). He was just sitting there looking very much like the ugly step child when we locked eyes. It was love at first sight for both of us.

A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself.
Josh Billings (1856 - 1950)

We looked at him and cooed and went on our way because he was soooo expensive. The rest of the way round the huge flea market ...I thought about the dog, I talked about the dog, I whined that I had to have the dog, I knew he needed me as much as I needed him...I could just tell.
Mate Man can say NO and mean it. But this time I wore him down and he gave in. We went back and told the lady we wanted to see him up close and all that.

He is your friend, your partner, your defender, your dog. You are his life, his love, his leader. He will be yours, faithful and true, to the last beat of his heart. You owe it to him to be worthy of such devotion.
That was it I tell you. I held him and he looked into my eyes and I knew he was my dog. The one fur person who would love me best of all.
Mate Man pony-ed up the cash and we took him home.
He is just about the cutest and most terrible little beast ever. I have spent most of the last week running behind him and taking away stuff he can't chew. Being that he is small, he has found and delivered every scrap of paper and trash that ever fell behind anything in this house. The studio had to be puppy proofed...I tell you, he is into everything. He is so proud of himself's funny as hell.
After two weeks he is now fully potty trained and we are now working on tricks like sit, stay and so forth. He has the attention span of maybe two gnats right now.
It's all good.
I love my little man.
He has brought a bunch of joy into my very quite world.
I needed someone to take care of..I needed a baby.
I can't ever have anymore children (by birth) and I always wanted a bunch of I have fur people instead.
It's collage education to pay for, and they eat scraps and think it's heaven. (not that I feed my dogs people food)
I've seen a look in dogs' eyes, a quickly vanishing look of amazed contempt, and I am convinced that basically dogs think humans are nuts.
John Steinbeck (1902 - 1968)

So, that's my post for today, no art for now...because I am finally working on the REAL commission for my favorite art patron. I can't show it to anyone but her for now. I am really happy with the progress though, and because it's so large, the enjoyment level is big because it's lasting a while. I love working BIG!

Have a great weekend everyone, I hope you are all warm, cozy and surrounded by love.
BTW: The holidays are right around the corner, jive turkey...don't you need to get that art sent so it will be on time? There is still time to impress everyone with your brilliance and artistic understanding! Go buy some art living artists!

Sunday, December 02, 2007

"It is not the mountain we conquer, but ourselves."~Edmund Hillary

Out on the rocks
24" x 18"
Painted sides/back stapled
ready to hang
Hey! I DO Landscapes!
This is the very first landscape I have ever done. I used the rock elements in the commission work upcoming and just did it. I am really pleased that I now can say I do landscapes. No more monkey on my back I can't wait to do the bigger version on this, totally different of course because this is a practice work. But I am so proud of myself I could burst!
Yippee for me.
Let me know what you think. The pictures were hard to get, but the close up at the bottom is really right on with color and tone. It glows.
Love it.
So, I have a post for tomorrow that is all about some one new in our home, but I don't want to mix them so stay tuned!
Off to do a dance of joy now...
Here is the quote that inspired me to just do it:

Roads go ever ever on, Over rock and under tree, By caves where never sun has shone, By streams that never find the sea: Over snow by winter sown, And through the merry flowers of June, Over grass and over stone, And under mountains in the moon. Roads go ever ever on Under cloud and under star, Yet feet that wandering have gone Turn at last to home afar, Eyes that fire and sword have seen And horror in the halls of stone Look at last on meadows green And trees and hills they long have known.
J.R.R. Tolkien (1892 - 1973)

Here is the quote that was just for my inner self while working:

Most of us have two lives. The life we live, and the un-lived life within us. Between the two stands Resistance.

Steven Pressfield
Source: The War of Art

Heather (the dragon slayer)
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Thursday, November 29, 2007

Been tagged about ten times now, so here it is, 7 random things about me.

Close up of Mississippi Grrrl
Oil Pastels and collage (2007)

Ok, I've been tagged by a bunch of people, I've played this game over the years about a dozen times, so there's not much left to tell…but I will give it a go. I'm not tagging anyone else, so if you wanna be tagged…well, just wait five minutes someone will get you. :)


1. I hate the idea of feet touching me. This is why I had a hard time making it as a MLT, because people came to me with stinky feet and I washed every ones feet before I touched them…it was a hassle, but my clients loved it because they thought I was just being nice and kept coming in with really gross feet. I had to call it quits after awhile. (I know, I know)

2. I don't drink pop or let anyone in my house drink pop, I am the pop- a- nator.

3. I hate black eyed peas, cauliflower and brussel sprouts.

4. I don't like to shop at all, I will go shopping with a list and a timer, get in, get out.

5. I make all my Christmas presents every year, and have been doing handmade Christmas's for over 10 years.

6. I don't like girl clothes or shoes, (off the rack) they cost more, don't fit me, and wear out faster. So I buy most of my clothes second hand, spiff them up with embellishments, and I wear men's shoes/boots. I do love my skirts and dresses (for the summer time), and I buy them from people who make clothing. I love hats, the funnier the better and I wear them all the time just to make people smile at me in public.

7. Because of a stroke during childbirth (#3) I lost most of the vision in my right eye (I can see about 10% out of that eye, like looking at the world from under dark water), and have no depth perception at all in that eye. I can still hit a target at 60 yards with no sights (I am an archer, and I sight down the arrow) and put 6 arrows in the center of a target…all together, btw that's a space the size of a quarter and at 60 yards looks like the size of a dime.

OK, I did it. No more tagging of me please!

Have a great day all.

Love, love, Love.


Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.~Sagan

Above picture is from the inside of my Treasure Box.
I hope you enjoy.
After long experience in keeping journals and annotating my readings, etc., I grew more keenly aware of my own shifts in perspectives and criteria from time to time or circumstance to circumstance or relation to relation. Most mentalities are merely viscous, pathetically modulating from one tincture to another; I was determined to learn how to follow those little trails of snailslime in my own and others thinking. Human psyche at most levels is definitely a sea-creature, a metamorphic or Protean sort of being; but there is a visceral core that remains constant. How I learned to overcome idiotism or simpleminded perspectivism was by returning to what I had written over and over from several different viewpoints and strategies, assaulting what I took for granted from priorities and perspectives I had not originally thought of. One rises in that way from monocular or naive opinion to a kind of philosophical compound-eye like Argus had in mythology. One enables oneself already to anticipate criticisms, to defend or adapt against them or if need be go over to their vantagepoint. Most opinionizing is houses built upon the sand; philosophical intelligence is geological intelligence about the bedrock in every region.
Kenneth Smith


"Thinking gives off smoke to prove the existence of fire. A mystic sits inside the burning. There are wonderful shapes in rising smoke that imagination loves to watch. But it's a mistake to leave the fire for that filmy sight. Stay here at the flame's core."


Complexity is easy, simplicity requires mastery.
Peter Cajander


Good Day to you.

It's been a rough week, sick children, sick Momma, no artwork.

I may be going crazy...I'm not sure yet.

No...wait...nevermind...I'm still not sure.

I have been thinking, maybe too much thinking, I am having trouble sleeping because my brain will not stop.

I know today I will get to return to the easel for a time, and I can't wait for all my people to go to school and work and let me breathe, let me stop thinking, let me work. I love them all, I just find it really hard to take time away from them to work in studio. Today is a studio day...and coaching clients.

Thank the good Lord I can do both at the same time.

I am still OCD about apples. I've been drawing them, dreaming them and seeing them everywhere. I know that this is about my own inner investigations. I know I am symbolically trying to tell myself something. I am sure I'll get it here soon. I do know it must have something to do with knowledge, with magic seeds, with soft sweet flesh, with slick shiny skins, with being bitten and chewed, with sweetness and tartness, with cores being in the center.

I am apple.
Happy Hump day to you all.
Do yourself a favor and buy some art today.
Support living artists.

Friday, November 23, 2007

More new work

Traveling Man
18" x 24"
ready to hang/back stapled
Here's the quote to go with it:
And I will show you something different
from either Your shadow at morning
striding behind you,
Or your shadow at evening
rising to meet you
I will show you fear
in a handful of dust.
T.S. Eliot (1888 - 1965)
Good Morning After eat all you can day.
We had a feast to beat all feasts.
Mate Man cooked all day and fed us to the falling over point, it was fantastic!
I hope you all had good times too.
This is the first of the three works I did over the coarse of three days.
I had to wait for the knife work to dry on this one so I could fix what I saw was wrong. I really like him now...and I am enjoying the map my mind is making for me to follow. When I paint my best work happens when i don't have a plan, just a little idea and then i just relax, and play with what happens. (little i's on purpose)
I like these three because they are just that, (scroll down one post for the other two) from my inner eye, no prompting, no reference pictures or muses, just me...doing what I wanted to do. Ahhhh, it's like a day at the spa, or getting a thorn out after a while of painful squeezing. I like the spa metaphor better today.
Any way I have no clients today...and I would never go out into the Black Friday Greed-a-thon crap-ola that is going on it's just me and the kids playing board games and sneaking pie for breakfast.
Have a good one all, and tell me what you think of this new work...I find it so helpful to see work through fresh eyes.
Grins and giggles,

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

New Work, Hot off the Easel!

Good Day My Favorite People (yes, that's you too)
Come on in and see the new works!
Click on images to enlarge.

24" x 18"
Finished sides/back stapled
ready to hang
Here's the quote that helped the inspiration:

A good conscience fears no witness, but a guilty conscience is solicitous even in solitude.
If we do nothing but what is honest, let all the world know it.
But if otherwise, what does it signify to have nobody else know it,
so long as I know it myself?
Miserable is he who slights that witness.
~Seneca (4 BC - 65 AD)
I really just let my mind wander over what I am doing both internally and externally and gave myself permission to just paint what was on my heart.
This is the second painting of three in the last three days. The first one, it's not done yet and I am waiting for it to dry so I can finish it properly...I'll post when it's done.
I have to say, I feel a lot lighter with these three works done, I feel better, I feel calm and trusting again.

'This Apple'
18" x 24"
Finished sides/back staples
Ready to hang

Here's the quote for this one:

If you wish to make an apple pie from scratch,
you must first invent the universe.
~Carl Sagan (1934 - 1996)
So, what do you think?
I hope you all are having a happy day, and a good before the big eat yourself to death and pass out on the couch long enough to have some room for more pie day! :) Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday of all!
Love to you all, and leave me some love...come on you know you wanna!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

"Reality is an illusion. Albeit, a persistent one." ~Einstein

Laminated collage (2006) HMBT
Availabe for sale
8.5" x 11"
by Cheryl Denise, from I Saw God Dancing.
© Dream Seeker Books, 2005.
take your soul

and put it in a suit,

fit you in boxes

under labels,

make you look like the Joneses.

They’ll tell you go a little blonder,

suggest sky-blue

tinted contact lenses,

conceal that birthmark

under your chin.

They’ll urge you to have babies

get fulfilled.

They’ll say marriage is easy,

flowers from Thornhills

are all you need

to keep it together.

They’ll push you to go ahead,

borrow a few more grand,

build a dream house.

Your boys need Nikes,

your girls cheerleading,

and all you need is your job

9 to 5 in the same place.

They’ll order you never to cry

in Southern States,

and never, ever dance

in the rain.

They’ll repeat all the things

your preschool teacher said

in that squeaky too tight voice.

And when you slowly

let them go,

crack your suit,

ooze your soul

in the sun,

when you run through

the woods with your dog,

read poems to swaying cornfields,

pray in tall red oaks,

they’ll whisper

and pretend you’re crazy.


Fear is not what you think it is. Fear is not who you are underneath your facade. Fear is not the real you that you must somehow fix or improve or overcome. Fear is a very useful signal along the path to freedom. The stronger the fear, the closer you are to what you are seeking. If you want to stay "safe (i.e. stuck where you are), fear tells you to stop what you are doing, But if you want to be free, fear lets you know you are on the right track, it is a signal to push ahead in the same direction, to pick up the pace.

~ Cheri Huber, "The Fear Book"


To be human is to be vulnerable - this I must accept. My invincibility lies in my ability to not let the emotional and physical setbacks in life conquer me. I may be vulnerable to the experiences, but I'm invincible in my resolve. I'm unconquerable.

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I'm on it.
I'm unconquerable.
I am free.
Have a good day everyone,

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Silence is a source of great strength.~Lao Tzu

My quotes for today:


Contain your experience with the divine so that it does not escape you but rather shapes you. Be silent. Silence will help you avoid engaging in the games of competition and illusion that regularly seduce us in the outside world. Silence also helps you avoid distraction. It helps focus the busy mind---the mind that always has to be doing something, thinking something, the mind that always has to be otherwise engaged lest it become introspective and allow the soul's voice to override its own. The silence I am describing is a silence that you use to contain the grace you receive when you enter the Castle of your soul. This quality of silence allows you to engage in discernment. You carry this silence within you, even when you are with others. It allows you to hold your center amid the chaos of your life; it keeps you clear so that you do not do or say things you will regret or make decisions out of fear.
~Caroline Myss


I been silent so long now it's gonna roar out of me like flood waters and you think the guy telling this is ranting and raving my God; you think this is too horrible to have really happened, this is too awful to be the truth! But please. It's still hard for me to have a clear mind thinking on it. But it's the truth even if it didn't happen.
~Ken Kesey (1935 - )
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, Page: 13


Being silent for me doesn't require being in a quiet place and it doesn't mean not saying words. It means, "receiving in a balanced, non combative way what is happening." With or without words, the hope of my heart is that it will be able to relax and acknowledge the truth of my situation with compassion.
~Sylvia Boorstein

Source: That's Funny, You Don't Look Buddhist: On Being a Faithful Jew and a Passionate Buddhist, Page: 38


Good Wednesday to you all.

Ok, so yesterday I had to stop painting and working and fretting.

I needed some quiet time, inside myself.

This whole project is hard both internally and externally.

I even entertained the thought of giving up...for about 5 seconds. I never give up, it's always an option, but never a path I choose. I don't know how to quit.

I was thinking this morning when I woke up that I just need some silence right now...not complete outer world silence but some internal silence. That's a tough one for me personally, because I have a hard time stopping. I have a hard time getting quiet, on the inside. I have a very loud inner world...its a damn brass band marching around inside my head.

Wondering what it is all about this morning I thought I would study up on what it means to be internally silent. These quotes are what rang true for me today.

Working is never a chore for me, I grew up working and with people who valued working...working = freedom.

It's not the working, it's the time in between. The silence between the notes.

Sometimes I feel like my passions are eating me alive. I can't stop thinking, talking, and dreaming art. The studio calls to me and says, "hey you are not done yet! Get your Lilly white back in here!"

Until I master what I am after, I feel like I can never rest. I have not been sleeping well because of the internal art classes that reign over my dream state. I wake up and my hands are tired from holding a paint brush clutched in my grimy fist all night. At least in my dreams I am taking lessons from some really great teachers. I understand that I am harder on myself that the world can ever be, it's about self preservation. I grew up with very critical people who had tons of time to criticise but little love to give. So, I learned early on that if I am hard on myself it would probably save me a beating later on down the road. I became my own master, and slave. I am not blaming anyone for the crazy-ness that I live with internally...not at all. I am just trying to make sense of why I feel the need to push myself so hard and then not talk nicely to myself for working hard. I find that I still tend to call up what is wrong, or what I could do better, instead of talking up the hard work, the willingness to push and learn what is needed.

This "emotional trigger" is bigger than I thought. Of course.

In the past few years I have brought myself to a place where I live with confidence. Working through this is much harder than I thought, because I realize I have been avoiding it for about 25 years now.

I used to just state..."I don't do landscapes."

That my friends, is avoidance and ego.

I don't do landscapes because I have a huge internal scar about painting and art making in general. I am conquering it, I have been conquering it for years.

I know how to fight.

I am tired though, weary from the road. Triggers have a way of insisting that you deal with them, they just don't freaking die or go away.

Today I will work to silence the screaming, teeming masses inside my brain pan and just relax. If I paint, it'll be something I want to do, something that liberates. I often wonder if I'll ever get to the end of the road where I have mastered and slayed all the dragons. Maybe that's not my path, maybe I was born to slay dragons, or maybe this is the last dragon. Who freaking knows?

Well, I had better get on with my day...and see what happens.
I am entering the soul castle now...if I'm not back in ten minutes...leave me alone. :) Just kiddding. ;)

I hope you are all well, and having a great hump day.


Monday, November 12, 2007

It doesn't matter how much milk you spill as long as you don't lose the cow.

'Human being, classification: Female'
Laminated collage HMBT (2006)
Available for sale
My quotes for today:

I assumed that everything would lead to complete failure, but I decided that didn't matter - that would be my life.
~Jasper Johns

Failure is an opportunity.
If you blame someone else,
there is no end to the blame.

Therefore the Master


her own obligations

and corrects her own mistakes.

She does what she needs to do

and demands nothing of others.

~Source: Tao Te Ching

Nietzche was the one who did the job for me.

At a certain moment in his life, the idea came to him of what he called "the love of your fate." Whatever your fate is, whatever the hell happens, you say, "This is what I need."

It may look like a wreck, but go at it as though it were an opportunity, a challenge. If you bring love to that moment — not discouragement — you will find the strength is there.
Any disaster you can survive is an improvement in your character, your stature, and your life. What a privilege!

This is when the spontaneity of your own nature will have a chance to flow.

Then when looking back at your life, you will see that the moments which seemed to be great failures followed by wreckage were the incidents that shaped the life you have now. You'll see that this is really true. Nothing can happen to you that is not positive. Even though it looks and feels at the moment like a negative crisis, it is not. The crisis throws you back, and when you are required to exhibit strength, it comes.
Joseph Campbell (1904 - 1987)

Good Morning everyone.
Well, it's Monday again and I have worked all weekend on my practice paintings for the big commission. So far...well, I have played around with the knife a bunch, and that is fun. I have to give it up to any knife painters out there, it's freaking "A" hard to do and do well. I also figured out trees, and foregrounds....that's all good.

I don't have any that really pull off the main feature of the commission yet, but today I tackle that project.

I have figured out the ultimate nature of a Heather Landscape. It don't look real at all. That's the key I guess, livid color, tons of texture and a bit of weirdness thrown in for good measure.
Here is one of the practice
works to prove my point.

'One with her nature'

24" x 18"

picture taken indoors with a flash.


The trees are really good though, even though you can't see them in this picture...sorry about that.

This is the sun my patron wants...and the trees I got two of the elements in this work. In this next one, I just wanted to show what a hard time I am having at becoming a knife painter. OMG HARD! ARGH!

This one does not even deserve a it's just a throw away.

I did learn a lot with this work as far as, the way of the knife goes. So, it's no complete failure, just a real crappy painting. This picture was taken indoors with a flash...sorry about that...again. It's still dark thirty here, gimme a break.
Well, I must get my children up and moving, pack lunches, pull up today's client list, and prepare to cook three dishes for this weeks family menu.
Fun huh?
Yeah, that's the ticket.
Failure is an opportunity.
Ok, I can deal with that.
Have a good day all,

Friday, November 09, 2007

Painting was called silent poetry and poetry speaking painting. ~Emerson

Dragon Breath
Laminated Collage 8.5" x 11"
2006 HMBT
Available for sale
Good Friday to you all.
Here are my quotes for the day:
When I'm painting, I'm not aware of what I'm doing. It's only after a get acquainted period that I see what I've been about.
~Jackson Pollock
I paint my own reality. The only thing I know is that I paint because I need to, and I paint whatever passes through my head without any other consideration.
Frida Kahlo
If I could say this I wouldn't have to paint.
Pablo Picasso (1881 - 1973)
The act of painting is not a duplication of experience but the extension of experience on the plane of formal invention.
Stuart Davis (1894 - 1964)
So, I have been practicing, like a good little artist. I am working on learning the way of the knife. (painting knife)
So far I have totally wasted a bunch of paint and not really gotten where I wanted to go. No worries, I'll get it. I am not one to quit just because it's hard work.
The one thing that is really hard is not the learning...oh no, it's not the learning. It's the keeping up my spirits when I just spent hours on something and it turns to crap, at the last minute...that's the hard thing.
Anyway, I will press on and get to where I want to be. I think my brain learns so very's my muscle memory that is what is at least a couple days behind the brain. I know what I need to do technically, it's that my hands and body have not gotten all the information yet.
Speaking of not getting the message...
Last night I had a dream and in the dream I was yelling at my own hands.
I'm sitting at a table and holding my hands up in front of my face...and having a long talk about how I am disappointed in them for not showing up to work.
I explained to them that the rest of the body had made it in on time, the body, you know the one... it showed up for the day...and where were you at hands? hhhmmmm?
Well, they called in sick for a day at the beach...don't try to deny it, the rest of the body knows that was sand between you fingers...and we don't even live near a coast anymore! Stinking lazy ass hands!
I woke up when one of my hands told me
"it's allllll-riiight!"
Like hell it's all right.
That's what I was saying when I woke up.
Mate Man was like...what?!
I told him about my dream...and he asked me if everyone was at work today.
I told him so far...but you never know, because I heard rumors that the's thinking of asking for a vacation...Oh, the nerve!
I will be at the easel all day today...
This time I think I might have the top half of the work completely understood...and I am working on learning the foreground. That's hard!
I will get it, and it will be a wonderful work...when I get there.
No doubt!
Have a lovely weekend everyone...and for the love of all that is Holy...
buy some art from a living artist...
then everyone will know just how brilliant you really are.

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Life is simple - thinking is complicated. ~Peter Cajander

Collection of innards
Collage 2006
9.5" x 11"
Mixed media on canvas board

Speaking out loud:

I am the ultimate witness. I see many things. Sometimes I want to run away from all these things. I think it’s too hard, it will never change, never, never, never change. It’s too much because I see all the small, little things that go unobserved. The little looks in the eyes, or the sarcastic tone that comes up between people. I pick up on all of it and I say, “Oh so sad,” because unfortunately they do not even realize it themselves. They are living their lives in complete reactivity. They are not really living life but being lived by life.

So this is why meditation is very important. It leads you to become a witness in the physical world so that you can perfect your character. Then you can be of service to the world by being a creature who is acting in love, compassion and kindness in the world all the time. Try it. Step out of yourselves in public and just witness; see what you see of yourself. Learn from it and challenge yourself to be a greater person today than you were yesterday by behaving from a place of complete conscious awareness and not ignorance.
Swami Sai Premananda


In the private sanctuary of one's own conscience lies that spirit, that determination to cast off the old person and to measure up to the stature of true potential.
Thomas S. Monson (1927 - )


How do you eat an elephant?

One heaping helping at a time.


Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Life is a Strange School. ~Davis

Good Morning my turtledoves.

Here are the quotes that speak to my inner turmoil today:


"Life is a kind of game. Once you realize this, you can do lots of things, even unpleasant things, for the sake of learning and growth--without being encumbered by the weight of negativity."

~Steve Baxter


Ancora imparo.

Greek for "still I am learning."


We pay a heavy price for our fear of failure. It is a powerful obstacle to growth. It assures the progressive narrowing of the personality and prevents exploration and experimentation. There is no learning without some difficulty and fumbling. If you want to keep on learning, you must keep on risking failure - all your life.
~John William Gardner (1912 - )


OK, so I just got a new commission. (Yippppeee!)
I will be painting a large work of a special rock formation in Colorado for a patron. She has bought two of my works before and this is the first time she has ever commissioned a work of art before.

I don't really "do" commissions, truthfully. I'll do one for someone that I know, one who will let me figure it out, and give me the time to do it...if I know them a little bit at least, as far as their personality goes.

I agreed because...well I have not had a lot of sales this year, and I would love to see that change...and because it's a challenge to do this work.
***I posted the it and then felt like I left out the important thing right here it goes. ***
When I was a kid, my Father was a really talented hobby painter. I wanted to paint like him so bad that when I was little...I could feel it in my little body. It felt just like it does now, I have to paint! I HAVE TO PAINT! Ok, so my Dad was a meanie back then, and when he taught you something you had to pick it up quick, or it wasn't going to be fun anymore. At. All.
One day, I was about 12, he said he would get me my own supplies to paint with if I could show him that I had the steel to learn how to paint a landscape painting out of this learn how to paint with oils book. If I could accomplish the lesson, with some sort of talent showing through I would win the prize of being able to paint what I wanted with a butt load of supplies.
Of course, I bit.
It went really badly.
I didn't paint again for 20 years. At. All.
It was all over a freaking snow covered barn, in a wooded setting.
So, I have been presented with an opportunity to challenge myself through/and above an emotional trigger point.
Ahhh,, I get it.
This of course is not a snow covered cabin in a wooded setting, it's a great wonder of nature and majesty. I mean at least the universe gave me something inspiring to work it out with, right? I'll get to leave it out on the rocks, so to speak.
I take the challenge
I find that I have developed a reverse OCD about my life.
I want to heal.
If given a healthy way out...I'll take it, with a shit eating grin. "Why thank you very much, I'm going to get a whole lot out of this one!"
I feel better now, I got that out of my system.
Half the battle with the (inner) self is admitting that there is a difficult challenge ahead. Therefore, the challenge is going to be difficult, deal with it, and get over the obstacle. You have to do it, or face living between the walls, forever.
I need space baby.
I am a big person.
Big, big.
I can thank my Father in all this.
I can be grateful that he didn't teach me the lesson that he set out to do, but he did teach me how to endure the lessons of life, a life where I make the rules, with grace and grit.
So, thanks Dad.
I now return you to your regularly scheduled BAD! Kitty report...a stone skipping along the surface of things, but we all know that some where a stone girl is dancing.
I don't do landscapes,, not at all. I spent my entire working life drawing, planning, planting and creating REAL landscapes for people and I just don't have the desire to learn to paint a good landscape. I love watching Bob Ross...but I don't want to paint like him. So, now I find myself looking at the need to learn and complete a new work in a matter of a couple of months time.

Did I already say that I don't do landscapes?

Oh, I did...well... er...then...

I am now teaching myself what Heather Landscape looks like.

I don't want to step outside my own style too much, I mean it has to resonate with me and what I like to do, I have to be happy while I am working. I don't mean to say that I have to be all smiles and tra-la-la while I am painting, just that I need to have a real interest in what I am doing. the effort to find my inner landscape artist...finding the inner Whoo-Hoo!, I am practicing like a mad woman. So far...I am sucking at this.

Great. No where to go but up from here, I can only get better at this.

I am secretly glad that I don't know what I am doing...I do my best work when I don't have a freaking clue.

My lovely patron gave me the space to do what I need to do...her only rule is that I don't do the painting until I "feel" the rightness of the time and the energy. She so freaking rules! I love my far I have never had a bad apple to deal with. (7+ years now and counting, knock on wood)

Also because I don't accept commissions as a rule...I cut out a lot of worry time at the easel.

I am looking forward to the challenge...and just so you know unless I get something pretty good...I won't be showing my practice runs here. I may however reach out to my talented band of artist Friends and ask for advice and/or help. So you've been warned artist that have training and all that've been warned!

Well, I must get to the easel, and practice and learn.

I hope you all are being challenged in your worlds and that you embrace the day as it unfolds.

Have a great one,